The Beast Within
Original post to
Darkwind’s Garou Board
as "Wolf Tales (2)" Fri 18
Revised 15 May 2019
The Elf stands before the bowl filled with the
strange ointment and peers into it. Peering back at him is your basic elf --
long blond hair, blue eyes, pointed ears, soft and somewhat fragile-looking
features -- his own reflection. But he knows that can't be. The fluid is not
clear, but creamy; it isn't possible that he sees his reflection in it.
The Elf continues to stare at his
reflection-that-cannot-be-there and sees it change, shimmer, become fuzzy
around the edges. And then it metamorphoses -- not gradually, but all at
once, from one instant to the next. From gentle and beautiful elf into...
...the Elf gasps in shock and takes a step back --
a gut-level reaction to the horrific image he just saw. He can't remember
what it looked like, even though it was just a moment ago. Its physical
appearance surprised him, but didn't really upset him. The upsetting part
was the way the image had, at least for a moment, fused itself to his mind
and touched that part of him that has nothing to do with reason, logic,
sound judgment, or that which the Elf comfortably and reassuringly
classifies as "reality."
No, the image wanted
nothing to do with "reality". It homed in on something else within him;
something deeply buried in some dark recess of his mind all his life, wild
and unpredictable. Something feral. A part of him so well hidden
that nothing can ever hope to find it; so well guarded that, even if found,
nothing would ever penetrate its defenses; so deep that, even were the
defenses breached, nothing would ever haul it up to the light of day.
Nothing would ever accomplish that feat. Until now. Here, in a small
clearing in the woods southwest of the City. An eccentric, but somehow
powerful Old Man. A bowl of strange ointment. And the image of a Beast
therein. A Beast which comes not from the ointment, the Old Man, or the
forest -- but from the repressed subconscious mind of the Elf himself.
The Elf realizes his knees are shaking. He bends
down enough so that his hands rest on them, hold them steady. He closes his
eyes. Breathes in deeply. Forces himself to let it out slowly. Opens his
eyes. His knees no longer shake.
The Elf straightens
himself and takes another deep breath. In. Out. There. That's better. He
glances at the Old Man, who seems to be deep in a meditative trance. No help
there, but no matter either.
The Elf takes a step back
in the direction of the bowl of ointment and, after a moment’s hesitation,
looks into it again. Nothing -- just some creamy fluid in a bowl in a
clearing in the woods. He can no longer discern the Image of the Beast
therein. But the memory of it is strong and no longer subconscious. He is
aware of it now. The Beast has risen from its secret hiding place and now
resides in the Elf's conscious awareness.
With the initial shock
over, the Elf realizes that the Beast is neither destructive nor evil. It
stands now in the forefront of his mind, allows the Elf to study it, feel
it. If the Elf felt fear before, he now feels only excitement and
anticipation. It is said that every creature has one moment in the span of
its life where everything it has been and done culminates, one moment where
it all comes together. The Elf knows his moment has come. The door
is open -- he has only to walk through it.
The Elf extends his hand
toward the bowl.